Archives for the month of: March, 2012

I am not always sure how Trace feels about having a step father – but I gained some insight a couple of months ago.

Trace and his buddy Keith were playing, Trace was the little boy and Keith was the Dad.

K – “I want to be someone else now.”

T – “Who do you want to be?”

K – “I’ll be your step-dad.”

T – “But my step-dad is my dad.”

K – “No he isn’t.”

T – “Yes he is – he is just like my dad – I have two dads.”

K – “Fine – I guess I’ll be your Grandpapa.”

Be still my heart – the little guy is so accepting. Makes me a little teary just thinking about it.

Trace does not call River Dad, we have talked about the name Papa – he looks more like a Papa to me and it would avoid confusion since Trace calls his father Dad. Trace wasn’t sure about it, he said “But then I wouldn’t have my River anymore!”

Apparently River is a special name for Dad.


It is 4:30 in the morning.

I have been awake since 2:30.

I can’t seem to stop my brain from turning, from thinking about all the things that I want my life to be and how I am going to get to this new place.

My husband, River, and I have made a decision, we want his business ventures to be our business ventures. We want the businesses to be able to support both our salaries and for me to be home with our six-year-old son. We want to live a more sustainable life on our one acre of land, grow a productive garden and preserve our food. To live a simpler life with time and resources to see the places we want our family to see.

So I am awake! I am opening my eyes to new possibilities, new ways of thinking, learning new skills, and having the patience and perseverance to succeed, to building a simpler life for my family.

I am awake.

Good morning, good morning, good morning!

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